This video is part of my transition update series and it marks 7 months on testosterone. This video starts with physical changes, followed by mental changes, and life updates. The video ends with some photo comparison from my self portrait series.

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6 Months on Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my transition update series and it marks 6 months on hormone replacement therapy (testosterone). This video starts with physical changes, followed by mental changes, and life updates. The video ends with some voice and photo comparisons.

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12 Week Bulk to Gain Lean Mass Program - Phase 2 Results

Phase 2 was all about digging for deep motivation. The thrill of Phase 1 wore off and this became work, but by focusing on strengthening my mind more than anything... I was able to achieve all my goals. During this Phase I also received a lot of positivity, motivation, and encouragement from people on social media. This was a great motivator and made me realize that I can inspire and give back to others. These interactions reignited my fire to show others what is possible when you commit to something and give it your all.

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5 Months On Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my transition update series and it marks 5 months on hormone replacement therapy (testosterone). This video starts with physical changes, followed by mental changes, and life updates. The video ends with some voice and phone comparisons.

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4 Months On Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my transition update series and it marks 4 months on hormone replacement therapy. This video starts with a general update on my mental health and how I've been doing. This is followed by a discussion on how I've been "passing" lately as male in public and my thoughts on the experience.

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12 Week Bulk to Gain Lean Mass Program - Phase 1 Results

Wow, did I learn a lot on this bulk. This first 12 week phase was so beneficial to learning about my body and fitness. My goal was to put on size and I definitely accomplished that. I was able to gain 1lb a week, up my bench press by 20 lbs, and increase my caloric intake by 600 more calories a day. Throughout the bulk though I learned a few other things...

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3 Months On Testosterone - Video Update

Original record date: May 20th, 2017. This video is part of my transition update series and it marks 3 months on hormone replacement therapy. This update includes mental health updates and physical changes.

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12 Weeks On Testosterone - HRT Update

The last 2 weeks since my previous update have been a little up and down. For the first 10 weeks of hormone replacement therapy, I can honestly say that my dysphoria was doing really good. Going on T definitely has helped ease so many aspects of my gender dysphoria and I know that I am on the path to elevating it even further. In the aftermath of coming out to my professional network... some stuff got stirred up and my dysphoria has been creeping in lately.

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10 Weeks On Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my series "Endowed" which follows me through my first year of gender transition. I am 10 weeks into hormone replacement therapy in this video and wanted to document the physical changes that I have been experiencing along with some big transition updates.

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10 Weeks On Testosterone - HRT Update

Wow, the past two weeks have flown by and they have been full of changes... both physically and in my life. The last update I did was at my 2 months on T mark. I'm now at 10 full weeks on hormone replacement therapy and these were the 2 weeks full of the most changes.

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2 Months On Testosterone - HRT Update

Here I am... 2 months on testosterone. I'm not sure if I expected to be more excited, if I should be more excited, or if I'm exactly how I should be. Everything seems right in so many ways with my life right now and also things all seem so foreign and off. No matter how much I tried to button up everything before starting my transition, life throws it's mighty punches. That's the lesson it seems... to just ride the waves because they never stop coming.

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7 Weeks On Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my transition update series and it marks 7 weeks on hormone replacement therapy. I start the video talking about the physical changes that I have been experiencing. These include facial hair growth, body hair thickness, changes to my cycle, and voice changes.

6 Weeks on Testosterone

On Monday, April 3rd, 2017, I will inject my 7th shot of testosterone which puts me at 6 weeks on hormone replacement therapy. Lately, I have been through some significant stress in my work life and personal life. Managing my stress has been a big priority over the past 2 weeks. In this pressure cooker of stress, I noticed some interesting things happen with my self confidence and my gender dysphoria. Being stressed caused me to feel weak and not as energetic, this dampened my spirits and created a chain reaction that went straight for my self confidence.

One Month on Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my transition update series and it marks my one month on hormone replacement therapy. The video first goes over the mental changes that I have experienced during this first month. I also go over the physical changes that I have been experiencing along with some issues that I have had lately with needles and distribution of my hormones.

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3 Weeks on Testosterone

The calm that has overtaken me is very stable and steady. In the past 3 weeks my life hasn't been a breeze, it's been stressful with work and I've had relationship issues straining me. The difference is occurring in how I am existing through these events.

Transition Update - 2 Weeks On Testosterone

This video was made a few days before my 3rd shot of testosterone. Between my first shot and this video, life got really busy. This video is a little longer than originally intended. It overviews my first shot experience along with the changes that I have experienced thus far.

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The Day Before My First T-Shot

This video was made the day before my first shot of testosterone and official start of hormone replacement therapy.

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HRT Follow Up - What's Next?

This video was made in the a few weeks after my first appointment for hormone replacement therapy. It outlines some of the struggles that I was facing with test results and obtaining hormones.

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12 Week Beginner Bulk Program