Warning Signs That You May Need a New Therapist

This video is all about the warning signs of when you may need a new therapist or a break from therapy. This topic is very important to me. I never really saw a list of these warning signs and didn't know going into therapy how to spot a professional working relationship that is losing it's benefits. I hope this video can help others in their future therapy efforts!

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3 Months On Testosterone - Video Update

Original record date: May 20th, 2017. This video is part of my transition update series and it marks 3 months on hormone replacement therapy. This update includes mental health updates and physical changes.

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10 Weeks On Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my series "Endowed" which follows me through my first year of gender transition. I am 10 weeks into hormone replacement therapy in this video and wanted to document the physical changes that I have been experiencing along with some big transition updates.

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Drinking After Sobriety

After ruminating on the decision I knew that I didn't want to drink to alter my state, escape, numb out, or run. I wanted to be able to drink occasionally, end of story. It was the lack of excitement about it that was promising to me. I wasn't itching for a swig. I knew that if I tried it again and it didn't go well, that I could always go back to sobriety. That method would always be there for me as a tool.

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The Day Before My First T-Shot

This video was made the day before my first shot of testosterone and official start of hormone replacement therapy.

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My First HRT Appointment

This video was made after my first appointment for hormone replacement therapy. It outlines some of my fears and doubts going into the appointment, my experience with the Doctor, and the next steps in my medical gender transition.

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Transition Introduction

Endowed follows me through my gender transition using video, photography, and writing. The goal of Endowed is to document and explore what I experience during this transition journey.

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Struggle with Over Consumption

Any act of consumption can quickly turn into a way to shove down feelings, anxieties, and fears. Whether it's a case of beer or a case of donuts, items that we consume can quickly turn into sources of go-to gratification.

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What's Going On Here?

Welcome to "River Runs Wild". I started this site to have a creative outlet during a time of transformation.

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12 Week Beginner Bulk Program