Posts tagged honesty
Top 10 Blog Posts of 2018

Here are the posts from 2018 that received the most visits. They are a snapshot of this past year in my transition, bodybuilding, and self development journey. They are an honest look at what I love to share with others. I hope that they can be resources that give others support when they need it that most.

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Top 10 Blog Posts of 2017

What a wild ride this year has been. It's not quite over but with only a handful of days left in 2017, I wanted to pause and look back on the progression of River Runs Wild this year. 2017 has been such a transformative year and I wanted to share some of it's highlights. Here are the top ten posts from this year on my blog. Enjoy, share, and feel free to connect with me for any questions, comments, etc.

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Going "Home" for the Holidays - LGBTQ+ Reminder

The Holidays can be difficult for so many reasons. They are meant to be enjoyed with the people we love... bring us close together. Often, they do the opposite. There's all the stress of planning, large amounts of food, the pressure to spend money, seeing people that you haven't seen in a long time, etc. Some of these pressures can feel really overwhelming, especially if you are already going through a particularly vulnerable patch in your life.

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9 Months on Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my transition update series and it marks 9 months on hormone replacement therapy (testosterone). This video starts with physical changes, followed by mental health updates, and life updates. The video ends with some photo comparisons.

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8 Months on Testosterone - FTM Transition Update Journal

It's honestly a little surreal to be at 8 months on testosterone. Sometimes I still feel like I'm back at the beginning and filled with the unsteady feeling of embarking on something big. Over these past 8 months I have grown considerably. Yes, physically I've grown but as a person I have changed.

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6 Months on Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my transition update series and it marks 6 months on hormone replacement therapy (testosterone). This video starts with physical changes, followed by mental changes, and life updates. The video ends with some voice and photo comparisons.

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5 Months On Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my transition update series and it marks 5 months on hormone replacement therapy (testosterone). This video starts with physical changes, followed by mental changes, and life updates. The video ends with some voice and phone comparisons.

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Coming Out as Trans to My Professional Network

This is the actual email that I used to come out to my clients. I want to have this public and available as a resource to anyone who is trying to come out in a similar situation. This letter worked very well for me and answered people's questions. It also has a positive and open tone that invites any questions or concerns to be voiced.

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3 Months On Testosterone - Video Update

Original record date: May 20th, 2017. This video is part of my transition update series and it marks 3 months on hormone replacement therapy. This update includes mental health updates and physical changes.

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12 Weeks On Testosterone - HRT Update

The last 2 weeks since my previous update have been a little up and down. For the first 10 weeks of hormone replacement therapy, I can honestly say that my dysphoria was doing really good. Going on T definitely has helped ease so many aspects of my gender dysphoria and I know that I am on the path to elevating it even further. In the aftermath of coming out to my professional network... some stuff got stirred up and my dysphoria has been creeping in lately.

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10 Weeks On Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my series "Endowed" which follows me through my first year of gender transition. I am 10 weeks into hormone replacement therapy in this video and wanted to document the physical changes that I have been experiencing along with some big transition updates.

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10 Weeks On Testosterone - HRT Update

Wow, the past two weeks have flown by and they have been full of changes... both physically and in my life. The last update I did was at my 2 months on T mark. I'm now at 10 full weeks on hormone replacement therapy and these were the 2 weeks full of the most changes.

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2 Months On Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my series "Endowed" which follows me through my first year of gender transition. I am just about 2 months into hormone replacement therapy in this video and wanted to document the physical and mental changes that I have been experiencing along with some life updates.

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2 Months On Testosterone - HRT Update

Here I am... 2 months on testosterone. I'm not sure if I expected to be more excited, if I should be more excited, or if I'm exactly how I should be. Everything seems right in so many ways with my life right now and also things all seem so foreign and off. No matter how much I tried to button up everything before starting my transition, life throws it's mighty punches. That's the lesson it seems... to just ride the waves because they never stop coming.

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6 Weeks on Testosterone

On Monday, April 3rd, 2017, I will inject my 7th shot of testosterone which puts me at 6 weeks on hormone replacement therapy. Lately, I have been through some significant stress in my work life and personal life. Managing my stress has been a big priority over the past 2 weeks. In this pressure cooker of stress, I noticed some interesting things happen with my self confidence and my gender dysphoria. Being stressed caused me to feel weak and not as energetic, this dampened my spirits and created a chain reaction that went straight for my self confidence. 

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Combating Stress and Self Doubt

This video is on the topic of stress and how it often causes me to doubt myself. These doubts often lead to self confidence and shame issues. Throughout my journey to my authentic self, I've experienced many bouts of shame, anxiety, depression, and lack of self confidence. There have been some really helpful self care tools that got me through hard times and this video aims to share those.

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Tarot as a Self Care Tool

The beauty of the Tarot lies in the relationship that one develops with it over time. There will be readings that are just ok, some will be surprising, and some will be deeply moving. There are times that I have felt an energy connecting with me that was clear and strong.

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Drinking After Sobriety

After ruminating on the decision I knew that I didn't want to drink to alter my state, escape, numb out, or run. I wanted to be able to drink occasionally, end of story. It was the lack of excitement about it that was promising to me. I wasn't itching for a swig. I knew that if I tried it again and it didn't go well, that I could always go back to sobriety. That method would always be there for me as a tool. 

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