Can I See Your ID? - Verbal Harassment and Updating ID During Transition

In the video I discuss the time that I was verbally harassed regarding my ID and my gender identity. I also go over the 4 IDs that I’ve had during transition and why/what I updated each time.

2 Years on Testosterone! Update Video

This video goes over the changes that I have experienced from 1.5 to 2 years on T. I talk about physical changes, mental state, and where my transition seems to have arrived at 2 years.

My 100th Shot of Testosterone

This video celebrates hitting 100 shots of testosterone since starting hormone replacement therapy.

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One Year Post Op Top Surgery - Review of Dr. Garramone and Results

This video shows me at one year after having double incision top surgery with Dr. Garramone in Miami, FL. I go over how I've healed, give my review of my experience with Dr. Garramone and his team, what the recovery process was like, and share if I am happy with my results.

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Ask Me Anything - Q&A Video - FTM Transgender

I requested that people ask me questions on social media and you all delivered! Thanks to everyone who reached out and sent me a question. I had fun filming this one. I hope you enjoy it.

One Year on Testosterone - FTM Transition Before and After

This video recaps my first year of transition through clips from my video journal series. I talk about the incredible experience of this first year on testosterone and show my FTM transformation.

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2 Months Post Op - FTM Top Surgery - Update Video

This video covers where I'm at with physical healing, my experiences in the gym, and my mental state concerning my chest at two months post op top surgery.

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10 Months on Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my transition update series and it marks 10 months on hormone replacement therapy (testosterone). This video starts with physical changes, followed by mental changes, and life updates.

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FTM Top Surgery Video Journal - Day of Surgery to 2 Weeks Post Op

This video combines video journal entries that I shot during my first 2 weeks of recovery from top surgery. The video also features before and after photos of my chest throughout this last 10 months on testosterone.

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Going "Home" for the Holidays - LGBTQ+ Reminder

The Holidays can be difficult for so many reasons. They are meant to be enjoyed with the people we love... bring us close together. Often, they do the opposite. There's all the stress of planning, large amounts of food, the pressure to spend money, seeing people that you haven't seen in a long time, etc. Some of these pressures can feel really overwhelming, especially if you are already going through a particularly vulnerable patch in your life.

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9 Months on Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my transition update series and it marks 9 months on hormone replacement therapy (testosterone). This video starts with physical changes, followed by mental health updates, and life updates. The video ends with some photo comparisons.

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8 Months on Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my transition update series and it marks 8 months on hormone replacement therapy (testosterone). This video starts with physical changes, followed by mental health updates, and life updates. The video ends with some photo comparisons.

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8 Months on Testosterone - FTM Transition Update Journal

It's honestly a little surreal to be at 8 months on testosterone. Sometimes I still feel like I'm back at the beginning and filled with the unsteady feeling of embarking on something big. Over these past 8 months I have grown considerably. Yes, physically I've grown but as a person I have changed.

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5 Months On Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my transition update series and it marks 5 months on hormone replacement therapy (testosterone). This video starts with physical changes, followed by mental changes, and life updates. The video ends with some voice and phone comparisons.

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12 Week Bulk to Gain Lean Mass Program - Phase 1 Results

Wow, did I learn a lot on this bulk. This first 12 week phase was so beneficial to learning about my body and fitness. My goal was to put on size and I definitely accomplished that. I was able to gain 1lb a week, up my bench press by 20 lbs, and increase my caloric intake by 600 more calories a day. Throughout the bulk though I learned a few other things...

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3 Months On Testosterone - Video Update

Original record date: May 20th, 2017. This video is part of my transition update series and it marks 3 months on hormone replacement therapy. This update includes mental health updates and physical changes.

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12 Weeks On Testosterone - HRT Update

The last 2 weeks since my previous update have been a little up and down. For the first 10 weeks of hormone replacement therapy, I can honestly say that my dysphoria was doing really good. Going on T definitely has helped ease so many aspects of my gender dysphoria and I know that I am on the path to elevating it even further. In the aftermath of coming out to my professional network... some stuff got stirred up and my dysphoria has been creeping in lately.

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10 Weeks On Testosterone - HRT Update

Wow, the past two weeks have flown by and they have been full of changes... both physically and in my life. The last update I did was at my 2 months on T mark. I'm now at 10 full weeks on hormone replacement therapy and these were the 2 weeks full of the most changes.

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12 Week Beginner Bulk Program